Sometimes I wish I could work on myself full time! It takes a lot of work and time to really do the work. I feel like I take care of everyone else in life and have a difficult time taking the time for myself.
Its interesting how I still struggle with things, processing. I feel like I am constantly processing and reassuring myself I am not crazy. Its amazing how another person can literally make you feel like you are crazy! Gaslighting, blame, etc. Its a powerful thing. I still struggle with guilt. Guilt for allowing myself to be taken advantage of, looking back, jesus...did I push those red flags out the door so I didn't have to see them. I find myself thinking everyday of another instance I didn't listen to my gut.
I continue to change, hopefully to be a better person. Better at coping, realizing people can be loved from a distance. Wish I had all the answers, but I guess life would be boring if that was the case!
